Behind the Mask…

Whenever I tell my friends or people I work with, my struggle, they look at me with a surprised expression because they tell me they would never have guessed that I struggle with depression. I wear this “mask” that gives a vibe that everything is okay and I am happy. But in reality I am not. People have a tendency to wear these types of “masks”. Where they act a certain way with their friends, and then act a different way with their family, and then act another way at work. Though, when they are by themselves, they act fully themselves as if no one is watching. It is quite common for us humans to do this. But when it becomes a habit and you can recognize it, it may then soon become a problem. That is only because people are here to help you and care for you. But if they do not know what you are really going through and what you are really feeling; they can not help you. Just a thought for today.

Peace. Love. Happiness.
Sai (:

Behind the Mask…

I want to inspire more 

Hey everyone. I want to share my life story soon. Some know the details. Though, I want to share it with others so they can get a feel of why I am so inspiring to many!!! Very soon, I believe it is time to post my story on here for the world to see. Wait on it people. I’ll be back. 

Peace. Love. Happiness. 

Sai (: 

I want to inspire more 

Yesterday was my birthday!!

Hey everyone! I turned 22 years old yesterday!! My friends & fiancé did fun things for me!! I had many different celebrations! I got gifts too & had the best day ever!!! Okay everyone, I am checking in with my blog & my followers! Hope everyone has a blessed day & stays happy, healthy, & strong! Love y’all! 

Peace. Love. Happiness.

Sai (:

Yesterday was my birthday!!

Just Random

It is 1:01 am here. I just had a chicken nugget sandwich. I baked chicken nuggets then put them between 2 slices of bread. To make it more delicious, I added some ketchup and spicy mustard. It was yummy! Now I am watching my fiancé broadcast his online gaming stream of Deus Ex. I am so tired. Though, I enjoy watching him be silly and say funny things while playing the game. I am not much of a gamer. I was more of one as a kid. I’d play Mario Kart, Super Smash Bros, Teken, Little Big Planet, Kingdom Hearts, etc. Though the only game I have played recently is GTA 5. It is an awesome game!! I play games on my tablet. I like RPG games. They are really fun and addicting. I play Taichi Panda on my tablet and can’t stop playing it. I love it!!! I don’t know why I went on a ramble about video games and whatnot. Though, I guess now you get a glimpse of how my mind works. Sometimes it is a traffic jam.. though it is okay. I now let you all learn something new about me. That’s a plus. I love y’all! I am getting sleepy. I am about to rest now. Have a good night or day everyone!!

Peace. Love. Happiness.

Sai (:

Just Random

In 9 days 

Hey everyone! Good afternoon! I hope everyone is having a great day! Keep your heads up. Don’t feel down if you don’t get everything finished that you wanted to today. The fact that you put some effort in and tried your best is good enough. Never believe you are not good enough, because you are. I believe in each of you. Even though I don’t know you personally; I think everyone has potential. Sometimes it just takes a minute for people to figure it out on their own. 

Also, about the heading above. In 9 days, I’ll be turning 22 years old. (: 

Peace. Love. Happiness. 

Sai (: 

In 9 days 

Pain is Temporary

Hey everyone! Today I want to talk about pain. Pain within us everyday, pain you see in someone’s eyes, pain on the news, pain around the world, pain in general.
Pain is temporary. Some don’t believe such a thing. Though, think about it. This life we live is temporary. So why dwell on the pain that runs through our veins everyday? Is it because it is more addicting to look into the negatives in our lives, rather than the positives? Is it because one is more easier than the other? Sometimes doing the harder thing is the right decision. Not everything in life comes easy.
Unfortunately, the world is a chaotic place that we live in.  Things do happen out of our control. People get shot, mocked, beaten, abused, all for being a certain race, religion, beliefs, sexual orientation, among many other reasons. It is such a saddening thing. We are all supposed to love one another, yet we are to get each other. It breaks my heart truly, no one deserves to be treated such a way. I love everyone for who they are. I don’t judge. If you’ve personally been judged; then you should know how it feels. It takes you to a dark place, even to the point of question your own life. I don’t understand why people would rather react with violence in a situation where they feel uneasy, unsafe, or accused of such terrible acts. People don’t know how to create peace, so they react in violence is the only reason I can think of. Hopefully one day, we will all come together and make peace with one another. I really hope for good things like world peace.
Pain in general. Pain in general is found in each and every one of us. People don’t realize that everyone around us has dealt with pain to a certain level. Some hide it behind their smiles, some hide it behind the door to their household, some hide it behind the music they listen to, and even some hide it under their sleeves of their t-shirts or jackets. Just remember that you probably see pain in someone everyday, though you haven’t noticed. Just because it isn’t on the surface, doesn’t mean it isn’t there. Look deeper than the surface. Just a reminder.

Peace. Love. Happiness.
Sai (:

Pain is Temporary

Autumn is here

Good afternoon everyone! Today is the 1st of September in the America. (Well, when I started typing this post, it was that day. Now it is September 7, 2016.) I know in different parts of the world, it is a different season than where I live. One of my favorite seasons is fall. Autumn is a season that is a time for letting go and escaping things that have been a heaviness or burden. When you see the leaves falling upon the ground, you are reminded of nature’s cycles. Spiritually, fall is a time of new beginnings or transitions. Many people look forward to fall because it is a very genuine time. People come together, celebrate each other’s presence, being reminded of the meaning of gratitude, among other meaningful things that each individual is thankful for. I love fall personally, because the air becomes cooler (sweater weather), the time of when the sunsets is earlier (so I like wrapping up in a blanket and watching movies by 7 pm), the pumpkin patches are being set up (which are so much fun, because sometimes there are cool scarecrow mazes or hayrides), and most importantly the kindness and selflessness I see at this time touches my heart (clothes and food drives, soup kitchens, helping the homeless, donations to plenty of different foundations, and many other random act of kindness). Now you can see why I love this season so much. It is a beautiful time of the year. I just wanted to share my thoughts about it.
Just a side note: Hope everyone is having an amazing day! For anyone who is having a not so good day, look to God. He is always good. Never doubt what the Lord can do. Stay positive, be thankful, and never lose Faith. Good things come to those who are patient.

Peace. Love. Happiness.
Sai (:

Autumn is here