Update (:

Hey everyone, I am here updating you. Good news, my brother is finally getting out of the hospital tomorrow! I am so relieved. I am happy to know he is feeling much better now! I made a new friend this week. He is very nice. My cat likes his new cat tower. He be running up onto it, like Mufasa. It has gotten cold here. I have had to wear sweatshirts & boots outside. My depression has gotten worse. I have had about 4 panic attacks in the last week. It is so tiring… okay that is all for now.

Peace. Love. Happiness.
Sai (:

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Update (:

It’s hard right now…

I am having the hardest time right now. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder in 2013. Every day is literally a struggle. I am manic & depressive. Right now I am very depressed. I’ve been having bad panic attacks. It’s tiring to the body. I feel alone in this world sometimes. I just want people to understand me. Mental disorders are something you don’t take lightly. I am really struggling with some inner problems right now. I wish things were easy, though it just isn’t… And on top of that, one of my brother’s is in the hospital. So I just feel so down. It is just a gloomy week.

Peace. Love. Happiness.

Sai (:

It’s hard right now…

Why Give Up?

Why do people decide to give up? Is it because people put them down? Is it because they don’t believe in themselves? Is it because the dream or goal they have is too unrealistic for them to even think it is possible to achieve? There are so many reasons why a person should feel such urges to give up. Though, I am going to tell you why you shouldn’t give up.
You have a whole life ahead of you. Opportunities pour into your life, doors are left wide open to go through, people are waiting for a person like you to greet them because they have a job that’s been awaiting you a long time. You will miss out on each and every opportunity that is thrown at you, if you don’t open your eyes and see what the world has to offer. Don’t wait, don’t procrastinate, don’t shut the door. First try. If you don’t try it out, you will never know if it was something great. My fiance always told me: “Try it out. It is okay if you don’t like it after a few tries. Though, always try to see, so next time that kind of opportunity comes you’ll know you’re either fit or not fit for it.”
Just never give up on your goals, dreams, and aspirations in life. It could take years to achieve, though it is worth the fight, sweat, and tears. Success is not something that is just given to you. You have to earn it.
Don’t give up. Have Faith, Determination, Motivation, and  Positive Thinking. You’ll be successful. Just be patient.

Peace. Love. Happiness.
Sai (:

Why Give Up?

Not Sure…

I am actually not sure when I am going to share my story yet. I know it will be a brave step. The only ones who know my life in and out are my fiance (of course), best friends (who have been there from day one), and my closest friends (who have also gotten to know me quite well). I guess why I am so uneasy about sharing my personal life story is because, many people will read this I am guessing. I know I have inspired so many already. It is just a lot to think back to. The whole reason I would share it, would be to help many others. My story has helped people feel hope within themselves. I have been through the toughest situations and experiences; even with being such an outgoing individual. I am not sure how to explain it, as if I have more to myself than you would imagine. My back story is more deep. People always ask me how I can be so happy with everything I have gone through. When I share my story with all my viewers & followers, they can see what everyone else sees in me. (A strong individual who has grown through such pain and destruction. Who kept her Faith strong and never doubted what the Lord could do for her.) There is a light at the end of the tunnel, whether you can see it or not. That’s all I am going to say until I post my story.

Peace. Love. Happiness.
Sai (:

Not Sure…

I am stronger.

​1 month & 16 days until I reach 3 years of not being suicidal. I was suicidal for 5 years. I am so blessed to have chosen life after fighting that tough battle of negative thoughts. I hope I never have to feel so depressed to think such thoughts again. If anyone ever needs advice, I’m here for you. I don’t want anyone ever feeling that feeling. It’s a dark place that some people truly don’t understand. Though, I do understand because I’ve personally been through it, amongst many other traumatic experiences. I love you all! Thanks for everyone’s support & time. I am starting to open up more on my blog to help my readers & followers understand me better.

Peace. Love. Happiness.

Sai (:

I am stronger.

Shadow got his cat tower

We bought Shadow his cat tower for his 2nd Birthday.  (even though his birthday is not until November 12th.) He is so excited. He’s been playing on it for the past hour. I’m so glad my fiance & I could get it so our cat can have a fun thing to play on. I love seeing animals being happy & playful. I am about to eat dinner with my love. Have a good night y’all.   

Peace. Love. Happiness. 

Sai (:

Shadow got his cat tower

Hi everyone (:

Hey everyone! I want everyone to stay positive today! Make today count! Never give up! People who give up, never come to see the opportunity they had until it’s gone! Love yourself everyday! Smile at someone; you never know if they are having a bad day. A smile can make a lot of things better, trust me! I’m so tired today! Though, I am going to be productive and get some things done today! So ttyl for now! Love y’all!! 

Peace. Love. Happiness.

Sai (:

Hi everyone (: