Ooo LaLa

I should start posting pictures on here! I realized that I only have 2 pictures posted and they are of my cat, Shadow. Do ya’ll think I should actually post more pics?  I might just start doing that! Make my blog  attracting to the eyes! 😁💯

Xo, Sai (:

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Ooo LaLa

Where are you mama?

Mama. Where are you? I have longed to one day meet you. I was sent to America not even remembering what you looked like because I was a baby. Do I look like you? Do I act like you? Questions I ask myself. I know you gave me up for a good reason. Though, not knowing who your birthmom is, well it’s an empty hole in my life; in my heart. I feel empty. You thought you gave me up to a great foster family, yet they abandoned me after raising me for almost 18 years. They abused me, raped me, hurt me, broke me, abandoned me. Though, I am safer now mama. I have a new family who loves me unconditionally, which I thank God everyday for! I just feel sad. I really want to know you. I want to hug you. Show you how strong of a daughter you have. How beautiful of a daughter you have. How people are inspired by your daughter. I wish you could see me now mama. You would be proud. You would be proud. I love you mama. I will always be thankful for you. I technically wouldn’t be here if you didn’t birth me. So thank you mama. One day I will go back to India to find you. I hope I meet you mama. I love you.

Your daughter, 

Sai Chandrika 💜

Where are you mama?

Just why???

I don’t understand why parents can’t be happy for their children. If they don’t follow the goals or family traditions, then they aren’t shit to them. Why can’t parents be happy for their kid(s). Damn, I’m sorry this world is a lot different than the olden days, where parents seem to all say was the “good ole days”.  I’m not speaking for all parents. Though some just think they’re perfect and lie to their children to make them feel bad. Do you know how bad their child feels when they don’t get accepted into a big college that their family members have been all attended. On top of that, the parents look down on them as if they are failures. There are situations like that. It is sad. It’s freaking sad. I was sitting here thinking about that.

Just why???