Just Stop

Stop letting other people’s opinions get the best of you. Stop letting those little lies fill up in your head. Your haters who want to see you miserable. They want to see you unhappy because they are unhappy. They want to pull you into their gloomy and depressed world. Don’t let them. Stop letting people get inside your head. You are worth more than those degrading thoughts and little pieces of negative doubt. You are worth more than the stars in the sky. You have more potential than you see in yourself. You don’t see it, because you’re blinded by all the haters. Their voices and words have more volume than your own confidence and thoughts. Stop it. Change it. It should be, your confidence and thoughts have more volumes than the haters voices and words. You got this. Stop letting others run over you. Stand strong and courageous. Be brave and confident. You got this, even if you don’t believe you do. 

I love you all. Stay motivated and positive. 

Peace. Love. Sai. (:

Just Stop

What You think and What You know

What you think: 

You all see her as a beautiful girl with a stunning smile. Her hair so silky and long. They see such intelligence and braveness in her. They see strength and wisdom. They see such a positive, uplifting energy beaming from her soul.

What you don’t know:

There is pain flowing through her veins, tears filling up in her eye sockets, exhausting depression where her body feels so weak, and longing for something she has no idea is even in arms reach.

She hides her pain with her stunning, contagious smile. Her beauty glows. No one ever knows when she’s sad or in pain. She holds her head high and seems to hide her pain well.

 What you think and what you know are two different things. Remember that. 

Xo, Sai ❤

What You think and What You know

I miss you

Have you ever missed someone, without even meeting them? I do. I miss my mother, even though I have never met her. I have been depressed lately. I am not sure if it was triggered by the fact that mother’s day is indeed tomorrow.

Last night, B and I bought his mom mother’s gifts. As I was grabbing some items, my friend asked me what I was getting my mother, since she saw me buying things for B’s mom. My friend wasn’t aware of my situation yet. She though I could ship the gifts to India. She had no clue I haven’t my mother.

Is it weird for me to say I love my mother? I think the world of her. I dream of her and the beauty she holds. I pray one day, I meet her. I feel a spark in my heart that one day I could be standing side by side with my mother. I could somehow stumble upon her. The world is so small. Fate has a way. God has a plan.

I am sad. An orphan I was born. An orphan I became again. Though, I have a mother. I have a father. I will dream until my wish comes true. That is my biggest wish of all. That is my dream. Most people dream and wish to be married or to have a fairy tale life. Others wish to have a roof over their head and food on the table. I wish to meet my mother. We all have wishes and dreams.

What is yours?

Xo, Sai

 

I miss you

Choked

B just saved me!! I was choking on popcorn!! It went down the wrong tube! Thankfully B came into the bedroom and helped me stop choking. I was so scared. I grabbed his shirt because I could barely breathe. He always makes me feel safer especially if I hold his hand or when scrunch his shirt with my hand. I don’t think I’ve ever choked that bad before. If I have, it’s been too long to remember such a feeling. 

Xo, Sai 

Choked

The month of May?

Hopefully in the month of May. I will be upgrading & updating my website. I want to get on a new plan. One of the paid plans, so I can get more space on here, upload videos, and much more! I want my website to look extra presentable for my followers & viewers! 

Sistah Sai is always wanting to make her fans smile!! Hopefully when I get my upgrades for my website, it’ll be even more appealing to the eye!!

Xo, Sai

The month of May?

It’s my mama’s bday!!

Mama!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY!!! I am so blessed to know you! You have changed my life for the better!! I really appreciate your presence in B & my life! I am more than thankful for everything you’ve done for us! I’m glad I can call you my mama. I’m so proud of that! It makes me feel loved & cared for! I almost lost faith in the word family until you entered my life. God restored what I had lost and gave me something even better which was you. You are the definition of what a real and true mother is. You sacrifice anything to make sure your family is cared for and they know that they are loved. I admire how strong you are and how genuinely kind you are to your family and everyone around you. Thank you for inspiring me and letting me be one of your own and accepting me into your family. You have a beautiful heart & soul!!! I love youuu! YOU ARE THE BEST!!! Have an amazing day! 😁🙌👑💖

Love Always, Sai 

(This post is for a woman in my life that I call my mama. She has been present in my life for about 3 years now. I admire her & I am so grateful to have such a beautiful woman in my life who I can call my mama or mommy.) 

It’s my mama’s bday!!

Worrkkkk!

Hey everyone!!! I have been on a break from my  blog, due to working again. I have been working 2 weeks now at my new job!! I love it so much!! I am happy with the job! My manager is so amazing and the work is light. My customers love me. They give positive feedback to my boss. I even got my first gold star sticker for my name tag!! I am the first to ever get one in my department! I am so excited and feel honored!!

I actually will  be able to make posts on here even when I am at work, if I want to. I am allowed to watch Netflix, text, video chat, even draw or color. It is an easy job. There are maybe 7 to 10 tasks that are important throughout the whole 8 hour shift. It isn’t that hard. I have a lot of down time, which is why my manager just says do what you like as long as you do the tasks that need to be done. He says I am doing great there!!

I do get kind of annoyed. Many customers the guys mostly try to hit on me. It irritates me how they can be very disrespectful. I just say I am married at this point. Saying I am engaged, makes them still try to flirt with me. Though if I say I am married, they die down on the flirting.

Other than that, It is amazing at work!! My manager said be thankful you are blessed with good looks, because if you weren’t, you could get the opposite of the nice comments. Like customers hating and saying crude things about your looks or weight, etc. So I guess that is a positive out look on it.

Xo, Sai

 

 

 

Worrkkkk!