The ways I have grown in the past 5 years are:
5 years ago was 2013. The year everything changed. I went from being a young adult with so said ADHD to a young adult with Bipolar Type 1 Severe with Psychosis. A young adult who had to take medication for a mental disorder to now being stable without medication. A young adult who wasn’t close with God, who now prays almost everyday and preaches about how God showed her the way to a better life. A person who had a “family” for 17 years to a person who’s “family” abandoned her within a day. A woman who used to fear many things, who is now more courageous than she ever was. A person who decided to let everything around her be in the way of her main focus and goals, to now being a person with a stable job and steady income. An individual who was suicidal and now is 4 years clean of such tendencies and thoughts. A person who used to cry over the tiniest bullshit to finally becoming a more mature and stronger person who had overcome some difficult situations and challenges. A person who didn’t feel confident in her own skin to now being an inspiration to many who aren’t confident. A person who used to care what others thought of her to now being herself and not letting anyone bring her down. A young woman who had a passion to help others but didn’t know how to. To now being this inspiring individual to so many people. I have grown a lot since then and now each day is a new day for new opportunities and life experiences.
Peace. Love. Sai 🙂
When being in a bad mood. You’ve got to decide how far deep you anger will get. Will you let it subside to calmness or will you keep a fire going so your anger can boil and rise is fury? Some people just let their anger get the best of them. I am not an angry person. I usually don’t even get that mad. If I do I have to redirect that energy to a safe place. Not leashing such rage. Actually it’s not even rage. Haha when I’m mad people, think I’m silly. They can’t ever take me seriously. It’s kind of annoying. I guess it’s just because I’m a happy person and I rarely get mad. I am not sure where this was going. I was just typing away with no intent to inspire or tell a story. Just thoughts in my head. Scattered as always.
Hey everyone. I have been M.I.A. again due to working at my new job and then because of me being in my depressive stage lately… almost a full month now. I wanted to share about how I’ve been doing. I have working at my new job for over 5 months now. That is an accomplishment for me. I never have been able to hold a job for more than 4 months. So this is exciting for me and I am very proud of myself. I have bipolar type 2 severe with psychosis. Having a work life can be difficult for me and many others with BD. Especially during the depression stages. For me, I have no energy, I cry a lot, I am exhausted, I don’t want to get out of bed, I don’t want to talk to people or hang with friends. Literally, I have almost 200 unread messages from my friends. I am so grateful to have such a loving and caring man by my side who uplifts me and prays with me and makes sure I don’t sink into an even deeper level of depression, Because of him, I got to my midday work shifts on time. Because of him I got out bed and tried to become motivated even though I just wanted to sleep all day. Because of him I have felt comforted and he’s done everything to try to make me smile; whether it be him holding me, hugging me, kissing me, buying me food, etc. He has kept me together while in such a state of depression. It has been a while since I have had a long depression. So it has been quite exhausting for me. I have been proud of myself for pushing so hard and getting through it. Working and depression are quite drowning. Everyone knows I am a very outgoing person. Even my customers have been worried about me. One of them gave me a Rosary made of real silver, others gave me hugs, and a few have bought me food. They are so kind. Everyone who has truly helped me and extended their love and care. From B, to my friends, to my customers, and even my manager and employees. Everyone is so great. I love them all and am very grateful for them. Anyway, I just wanted to update you all on my progress and how I am doing.
Love Always, Sai
I’m super excited! My golden birthday is coming up in 16 days!! I’ll be 23 in the 23rd of September!! That is a special birthday! I don’t know what all I’m doing yet!! Though, that day will be extra special!!!
Reflecting back on my life. There's a lot of good memories. One memory that makes me smile every time I think about it, is when I met the love of my life 7 years ago.
It all started when …
I actually got to get some rest, because I've got a 40.25 hour work week ahead. I'm already tired. So, I will pick up where I left off sooner than later!
Your words. Your tone. Your actions.
All 3 effect everything and everyone around you. Be self aware of your own words, tones, & actions.
I have many pet peeves. I am about to share a few with you all.
1.) Don't lie to me. That will always be my number one pet peeve. Why it is a pet peeve is because it is very annoying to me. Why do you need to lie to me? That is the main reason to ever get me upset or mad at you.
2.) When someone tells you they have something to tell you and then they back off and say never mind. Why do that? You just got me all excited for nothing. Like when someone gets your hopes up and then crushes them by doing something stupid.
3.) People who act different around each person they are with. They act different around certain people so they can be liked. Why change yourself for others. If they don't like you for you. Then fuck them. Find people who genuinely like you for you. Not ones you have to change yourself for.
4.) People who cry to get their way. Tears do have affect people. Though others know when you're just sitting their bullshitting them.
5.) Talking shit behind my back. Why talk shit behind someone back? If you have the courage to say it behind someone's back, then you should have the courage to say it to their face. Don't bad mouth people if you can't tell them straight to their face what problems you have with them.