I miss you

Have you ever missed someone, without even meeting them? I do. I miss my mother, even though I have never met her. I have been depressed lately. I am not sure if it was triggered by the fact that mother’s day is indeed tomorrow.

Last night, B and I bought his mom mother’s gifts. As I was grabbing some items, my friend asked me what I was getting my mother, since she saw me buying things for B’s mom. My friend wasn’t aware of my situation yet. She though I could ship the gifts to India. She had no clue I haven’t my mother.

Is it weird for me to say I love my mother? I think the world of her. I dream of her and the beauty she holds. I pray one day, I meet her. I feel a spark in my heart that one day I could be standing side by side with my mother. I could somehow stumble upon her. The world is so small. Fate has a way. God has a plan.

I am sad. An orphan I was born. An orphan I became again. Though, I have a mother. I have a father. I will dream until my wish comes true. That is my biggest wish of all. That is my dream. Most people dream and wish to be married or to have a fairy tale life. Others wish to have a roof over their head and food on the table. I wish to meet my mother. We all have wishes and dreams.

What is yours?

Xo, Sai

 

I miss you

The month of May?

Hopefully in the month of May. I will be upgrading & updating my website. I want to get on a new plan. One of the paid plans, so I can get more space on here, upload videos, and much more! I want my website to look extra presentable for my followers & viewers! 

Sistah Sai is always wanting to make her fans smile!! Hopefully when I get my upgrades for my website, it’ll be even more appealing to the eye!!

Xo, Sai

The month of May?

Color Change

I am a very vibrant person. I am hyper, always smiling, cracking jokes, and making other people’s day! I realized my blog’s background is a dull color. Maybe I should change it. I am scared though. I am scared I’ll end up messing it all up. Hopefully I can be successful! I might make some new changes to my blog today or sometime this week. I am not quite sure yet. We will see.

Xo,

Sai (:

Color Change

Maintenance

Two months ago our apartments were all getting new balconies. The construction workers who did ours, accidentally drilled holes into our dry wall. Yesterday, the new contractors finally came to fix it. Today they came back to paint over the wall. Before they left, they broke the blinds. They closed them. When they left, I went to open them, and they won’t open. The guy broke the stick, I believe. We just got new blinds a few months ago, and they have been working just great. Lol.

Now we are getting new blinds again. At least we don’t pay for any maintenance work. It goes through the apartments pay. It is just annoying when things break. At least the things broken are fixable. I am thankful for that.

Xo,

Sai (:

Maintenance

A bite & then some

I have a bite on my upper right side of my lip. It is quite irritating. I am not sure what bit me, but I woke up with a swollen lip. I am actually allergic to insect bites and bee stings. I have landed myself in the hospital because of my allergic reactions. It sucks. Hopefully my lip becomes less swollen.

I am not only irritated with that, but the fact that the people who live above us, sound like stampeding elephants. I am so annoyed. They keep walking around slamming things. This goes on maybe 2 or 3 times a week, and it is an all day thing. I don’t know what they are doing up there, but other neighbors, have heard them. They are the same neighbors who decided it was okay to say out loud they are going to have a three some. Why would you say that in public, or where everyone could hear you. So disrespectful. I understand we have freedom of speech, though can’t people mind their manners and have some respect.

Anyway, I am in my depressed stage of my bipolar disorder right now. I haven’t been able to get out of the bed until after 12 pm. I feel exhausted and sad. B holds me and kisses me. He tries to make everything better. He even made me a chocolate milkshake last night. It was very delicious.

I tried out one of the Xbox One’s games with gold free games. I played Ryse: Son of Rome. I am usually good at combat games. I am never successful with first person shooter games. I did feel accomplished when I had finished a good amount of the game today. It is a lot of fighting and I really enjoy the game play. I am downloading Onigiri now. I hope I like that too. I believe I like mmorpg games. My favorite games growing up were; Teken, Street Fighter, Sonic, Super Mario, Crash Bandicoot, Zelda, Pokemon (of course), Mortal Kombat, Kingdom Hearts (my favorite of all games), Little Big Planet, and Spyro. Those are my top favorite video games.  (B is more of the video gamer in the family. He has some mad skills!!!)

I hope everyone is having a great day.

Peace. Love. Sai (:

A bite & then some