Golden Birthday coming up!!

I’m super excited! My golden birthday is coming up in 16 days!! I’ll be 23 in the 23rd of September!! That is a special birthday! I don’t know what all I’m doing yet!! Though, that day will be extra special!!!

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Golden Birthday coming up!!

It all started when …

Reflecting back on my life. There's a lot of good memories. One memory that makes me smile every time I think about it, is when I met the love of my life 7 years ago.

It all started when …

I actually got to get some rest, because I've got a 40.25 hour work week ahead. I'm already tired. So, I will pick up where I left off sooner than later!

Xo, Sai

It all started when …

Because I’m foreign 

Hey everyone. 

I am getting my hair trimmed today. Maybe adding a few layers to it too. I have thick hair. As y’all know, I’m Indian. So my hair is long and thick. People obsess over my hair. They ask what’s the secret to my hair. My first response may be too harsh so I go with the second one which is I just use head and shoulders. My first response would be because I am from India. It’s the foreign in me. 😂😂

Because I’m foreign 

Not sure why

Not sure why people judge when they don’t even check themselves first.

Not sure why people blame others for their unsuccessful lives. 

Not sure why people think violence is the way to make the world peaceful. 

Not sure why people can’t understand mental illness. 

Not sure why people make memes out of everything. 

Not sure why people can’t accept the truth. 

Not sure why sex is more important to teenagers than good grades and pleasing their parents. 

Not sure why equality isn’t an option because everyone still sees skin color as a major difference. 

Not sure why we can’t all just be mature. 

Not sure why I can’t fathom all of this. 

Not sure why I am unsure. 
Pondering at 3:19 am.

Sai 

Not sure why

My Besties

"A close friend is like a rainbow, when the perfect amount of happiness and tears are mixed, the result is a colorful bridge between 2 hearts." ~ Annoymous

My first best friend in my life was my cat I had growing up. Sometimes animals give a great connection with their owner, only some can really understand. He was my everything. I had him since 1st grade. He's an old cat now. (He's with my ex-foster family still.) I pray he is happy and loved. I miss him very much, probably he misses me too. Though today, I am going to talk about my 4 best friends who are humans lol.

Brannen: My #1 best friend of all time is my fiance, Brannen. I met him in 9th grade of high school. He gave me hope of better days. He was there for through the ups and downs of my life. He never gave up on me no matter how dark of the times he went through with me. He makes me feel the safest out of everyone I know. He has never hurt me and he taught me that the truth sets you free. Never lie, be blunt. That is where I get my bluntness from. A lot of people say I am blunt. B taught me never to beat around the bush, hence why I get fustrated when others do it. B saved me from suicide in 9th grade and in freshmen year of college. He was the main reason I got clean and got the helped I needed. I am forever thankful for him. I was the one who met him. I went up to him in gym class. A few different types of gyms classes all met in the big gymnasium sometimes. I went up to him and of course was hyper and excited. I said "hiii!", and from that moment on we became closer than ever each day that passed. He said the day he met me, was the day he said to himself, "One day I will marry this girl." Brannen is a very wise guy. He is a christian and has very good morals. He is a US Marine now. Which I adore Marines the most out of all branches of the military!! Ever since I was little, I have had so much respect for them! Ooh Rah!!! Well, I have bragged enough about B. Now onto the next one.

Lizzie: Elizabeth and I met in 5th grade of middle school when I just moved to Georgia. She and I have been close ever since!! We would always be goofy in school and sometimes get into trouble. Though, she kept me positive and happy. She a person I cherish very dear to heart. Our friendship is rare. Why I say that is because, we rarely fight. We really don't disagree on much. She is my kind of crazy though. Just upset us enough and it's over. When 2 best friends come together on the same problem.. you might want to apologize before we get heated. Haha. Though, on the other hand, she is a wise person as well. She has such a kind heart and a great personality. I am so thankful for her. I miss her so much. I can't wait to reunite with her soon enough. Good thing for technology; Facetime, Facebook, Snapchat, etc.
Trejon: Trejon and I met in freshman year of college. He and I became so close within days. He is a very wise owl. He has taught me so much, including self respect and self love. He never gave up on me. When he met me, I was right at the cusp of hitting rock bottom with the suicidal stuff. Though, he kept me afloat even when I was falling hard. Our friendship and bond  never grew grey, it has always been colorful.  He has had my back since day 1.  He showed me what a true friend is. He is like a counselor to me as well. Always gives great advice and has great meaning and positive influence behind it. I will always look up to him. He is my inspiration to do great in life!! I can't wait for him to B and I soon!!

Friendship is built upon trust, communication, loyalty, respect, commitment, and patience. All of my best friends share that with me. I am forever grateful for them. I am truly blessed.
"Friends are kisses blown to us by Angels." ~ Anonymous

Xo, Sai

My Besties

R.I.P. Grammy

December 15th is the 1 year death date of my grandma. She was my best friend. She was one of the smartest women in my life. She was a survivor of breast cancer. She gave me hope. I have been very angered. I never got to go the her funeral. I wasn’t invited. This is my grandmother; the mother of my foster mother that no longer associates with me. The foster family I used to have hasn’t talked to me in 3 years. They want nothing of me. Though, I still have a big place in my heart for my Grammy. She was very special to me. She always will be. She taught me how to be tough when I was bullied in school. She taught me self respect and confidence. She taught me how a young woman should act like. She was my #1 role model in my life. She was everything to me. My sunshine on a cloudy day. Literally, we’d sing you are my sunshine. She loved that song. I will never forget the good times we’d have together. She always came to visit for summer and the Christmas holidays. Her birthday was December 24th, Christmas Eve. So her death reminds me that we aren’t always promised a tomorrow and that every day we wake up to, is a blessing. I know she’s watching over me now. She is in a happier place and in the Hands of the Lord. I love her so much. Rest in Peace Grammy E. I will never forget you and all that you taught me.
XO – Sai

R.I.P. Grammy